well hello there, neighbor!

Visit me here from now on,
I’ll be looking forward to see you.

final statement.

okay.
it’s official:
i hate you now.

i tried, you know.
i really, really, really, really, really, did.
i swear.
but this is it. you crossed my line.

—
so there,
finally got that off my chest.
now i know i can move on and act like everything is fine.
like it always is. and as i said, always will be.

you can start backing off from my life now.

go away and stay away.

…

i did not, i repeat, i did not write the post before this.

even if i did, i could assure you that i must be under drug or voodoo influence or someone had the brains and guts to break into my account and wrecklessly wrote & published that post.

for whatever reason, and harm it may or already cause anybody,

behalf of my other half,

i can safely say that it won’t happen again anywhere in the near future.

thank you.

yours truly.

alter-ego taking over me ;(

someone told me that i’m out of your world.
unfortunately, that person told me that you implied that pretty explicitely rude.
well well. this is news.
’cause fyi,
you have been out of mine since months ago.

oh. i almost forgot.
your secrets.
you might wanna rain-check on that.

you don’t want to make me hate you, now would you dear?
my advice, which is the best anyone can give, given the circumstances is:
you better watch your back.
or your front. or whatever side you have in this matter.
’cause when it’s time, you’ll pay.
and you’d regret this ever happened.

revenge is sweet, my dear.
believe me.
and sometimes when your lucky,
it hurts. beyond belief.

just another glimpse of life..

if you have the time,

come visit me here.

and i pray it’s worth your time and attention.

have a great day

Amplop merah itu.

Siapa yang sangka bisa
sampai kesini?

Ribuan lain
memanjatkan doa yang sama.

Tadi, dibawah sinar
itu, dunia berhenti. Beberapa detik saja.

Untukku. Untuk keajaiban
ini.

Aku lihat kelangit,
mencari Mu.

Lupa kalau Kau ada dalam hatiku, dan tidak pernah jauh.

Ah.

Siapa yang sangka bisa
sampai kesini?

Ditengah ratusan
mata-mata kaca yang bertasbih itu

Semua, untuk dan
karenaMu.

Aku melihat tulisan
itu sekali lagi.

Tersenyum, melangkah
turun, menundukkan hati

Dalam amplop merah itu
ada cahaya yang terukir.

.. Lalu aku bertakbir.

00:00

Ini semua untukMu, Rabbi.

Thanks for the magic, Magorium.

Well, I just finished watching the last two of five movies I rented three days ago.

One of them had a person saying;

“Your life is an occasion. Rise to it.”

It might seem simple, but it had the power to slap me in the face pretty hard.

I feel like I haven’t been ‘rising’ to my occasion.

I mean, I have, but just not to the max yet, and I think I should. And so should you.

You see, you only get to live (in this world, no matter what your beliefs are) once. And not to mention for a brief period of stay. Time flies when you’re having fun, right? So why not make the best of what you got.

Like, for once, forget all the bills you need to pay, a superbly boring weekend alone at home,

a rejected proposal that makes you go back to square one after all the effort you’ve done,

your sick pet, a set-up with a total loser, a bad hair day,

a fashion faux pas gone public, a severe migrain ’cause a late lunch,

this guy you had a huge crush on but doesn’t even notice you,
a high fever on a hot-date-night,

your extraordinarily hard assignment that’s really close to due and you haven’t even got to the second page yet,

your favorite band’s gig that you missed because of a traffic jam,

an overcooked meal,
you suddenly got flate broke before time and you owe someone some money, you got cheated on,

tumbling a few steps on your way to get to class and got yourself a really nasty bruise,
or any other unfortunate events that you been through lately.

I mean, face it, no matter how bad things happen, you still have what’s most important:
your family and friends that would never leave you and still love you no matter what, right?

Try take a second, inhale a deep breath, look around..  and be grateful for what it is you still have.

Every single thing that you can see, hear, say and feel now is a blessing, a tiny part of His whole enormous major-plan. Must I remind you, God’s masterpiece plan is custom made, just for you.

Picture some kind of tailor-made couture Chanel summer dress, but eons better.

If you’re still questioning things and finding few coniditons that seems unsolvable.
Tell yourself that everything is gonna be just fine. if it isn’t yet, I doesn’t mean it’s not going to be.

Well,it might be tough, life is. But you’re tougher, and that it’s definitely not impossible to do.

Have a little faith, this time, in yourself.

All will be well in time, if you work, love, and believe hard enough.

I promise you, it’s worth it.

Happy believing! I’m pitching in prayers for all of us from here

00:37

me: "sleep well.."

him: "good night :)"

.. and we both went to sleep with our hearts smiling.

oh so happy i have you

:)

That original feeling never went away
That’s why I’m standing here today.
(Whoa Whoa)
So many up and downs
And nothing has changed
That’s why you know I’m here to stay.
(Whoa Whoa)

So put your arms around me, 
And then stay there forever 
Let it always be this way
You and me together

So put you arms around me
And I’ll never let go
I know they’re easy words to say,
But I mean it more then ever

Yours is the kind of love
makes nothing else feel good enough
And I’m never gonna give you up (Oh no, Oh no)

That original feeling never went away
That’s why I’m standing here today.
(Whoa Whoa)

(Ain’t nobody gonna take your place,
Only you made me feel this way..)

So many up and downs
And nothing has changed
That’s why you know I’m here to stay
(Whoa Whoa)

Ain’t nobody gonna replace
Only you make me feel this saved

So put your arms around me
And then stay there forever 
Let it always be this way

You and me together

So put you arms around me
And I’ll never let go
I know they’re easy words to say,
But I mean it more then ever

Yours is the kind of love
makes nothing else feel good enough
And I’m never gonna give you up (Oh no, oh no)
[Repeat 2x]

It can’t explain what’s the glue that holds us in.
(Whoa Whoa)

I can’t refrain if I had a chance to do it over again.
(Whoa Whoa)

So put your arms around me
And then stay there forever
Let it always be this way :
You and me together.
So put you arms around me
And I’ll never let go
I know they’re easy words to say,
But I mean it more than ever
[Repeat 2x]

Yours is the kind of love
makes nothing else feel good enough
And I’m never gonna give you up (Oh no, oh no)
[Repeat 2x]

[Outro]
Yours is the kind of love
makes nothing else feel good enough
And I’m never gonna give you up (Oh no, oh no, no no no)

—–

I can’t seem to stop playing this song in my head.

Ah. Thank you so much for making me feel this way, dear.

… J’adore!

(Song: Natasha Bedingfield, Put Your Arms Around Me)

(Trying to be) Ms. Brightside

Friday, July 11, 2008

9:23 - 10:26 PM

I had several things to do today. It’s kinda tiring and a bit stressful, ’cause I get to see my friends go home at 11 o’clock -straight after Experimental Psychology class, but I couldn’t even if I really wanted to.

This is because unlike most of my peer, I still have three meetings, discuss a few things about the organization I’m currently in with a few people, and practice saman (which I had to pass, by the way, ’cause I got so caught up in the meetings. Ergh. I wanted to come to practice so much.. *sob*)

Anywaaaaay..

Tapi tetap happy-go-lucky mode: (hampir) ga pernah off kok. Hehe

I mean, why show any pain to people that have nothing to do with it nor cause it, right? So as far as I can keep it to myself.. I’ll be fine.

Or again, at least act like everything is. You see, I hate pouters, so trying very hard not to be any close to acting like one.

Hmm. Everything between the hecticness and swirls of meetings and discussions, I had a few highlights.

I had lunch and a 45-minute chat with Kiddo which we hadn’t have the time to do recently. I also met with Cucubaby though, and not long after that me & Kiddo went to h3 and we talked about so much and laughed or hearts out. Oh and of course took pictures. Rituals, you know.

And I also spent some time with Ychan & Rizk, since Nyo is outta town and Widya is too busy to come to class. Haha. I’m kidding. *Peace, Widdd*

And afterwards I bumped into tecun who just got back from umrah (welcome back home!), we catched-up a bit and then I went to meet-up with my awesome A08’s at RTC and laughed so hard we that’s all we could hear for the 1.5 hours we were there was hardcore giggling.

He took me to the station and I went home.

On the way home, I stopped by to buy some mpek-mpek (See? You should’ve brought the mpek-mpek your Mom brought for meee! Sebell..) and es kacang merah for Mom, her feet hurts so she stayed home today.

Oh and talking about Mom, you friends, who read this, please pray for her wellness. I really would appreciate it lots. Thanks.

Oh lookie, it’s already 10.30

Time flies fast, eh?

That reminds me, I should get speeding up for the Experimental Psychology Assignment. We only have around err.. Twoo weekish left.

Hey tomorrows Saturday, right?

So, have a great useful weekend, everyone!